Saturday, September 20, 2008

6 Weeks Pregnant=Sick & Emotional

Yeah, so I'm 6 1/2 weeks pregnant and I'm so sick! It's so much harder to do this being pregnant thing when you have to get up in the morning to take care of your kids.
I had an especially crappy morning that started with a 5 minute vomiting/dry heaving session, followed by a pounding headache, and an overpowering, crippling sense of nausea not relieved by the aforementioned puke session. I barely made breakfast--pancakes for the kids and a piece of dry toast for me, fed Cooper his pancake, and then went outside to eat my toast.
As I sat there, I started thinking about how I seemed to get more miserable and sick with each passing day and how I still needed to take care of the kids I have. I wondered why God made it so that women have to feel like crap when they get pregnant. Wasn't there some way He could have made the hormones, or whatever other bodily changes that occur during pregnancy, not affect us so much? Why does it affect some women and not others? And after thinking about all of this, feeling miserable, and being riddled with pregnancy hormones, I started to cry. I mean, like a real sobbing, hard cry...
I had left the door open, and Cooper came walking out. He saw how sad I was and immediately wrapped his little arms around my neck and pressed his chubby cheek against mine. This made me cry even more, so he held me tighter for probably a good two minutes. Then he pulled away and looked at me with his big brown eyes, said "Momma?," and then smiled his contagious little smile. I had to smile back. Who would have thought that a 19-month-old toddler could be so empathetic and caring?!? Could he really understand my feelings in his little egocentric, self-centered world? Maybe for that one little moment, he did. I so appreciated that precious little moment, and it made me feel better emotionally, though not physically.
I have since decided, today, to try to do as much as I would have done had I not been sick. I have a husband and kids to love and take care of, a house to clean, a job to work, friends and family to talk to, church callings to attend to, and a slew of other reponsibilities. If I have to puke and cry the whole way through it, then so be it.

Monday, September 15, 2008

New Floors!

Yay! We got a new laminate floor put in last week, hence the reason I haven't been able to blog until now. We ripped up our crappy, cheap carpet that came with our house and put down this:So far, it's been a piece of cake to clean. i.e. It's so much easier to wipe up Cooper's mashed banana off this floor than to scrub it out of carpet! The kids love playing on it. We all got our socks on one night and slid back and forth across it before we put all the furniture back in. (Dang! I forgot to take pictures!)
Now, we just need new couches, new carpet upstairs, mud room furniture, bar stools, new furniture for Cooper's room, etc., etc., etc.!

Monday, September 1, 2008

It's The Forever Kind of Love

I copied this directly from my sister-in-law's blog (including the blog title), because I was so touched by what she said about her belief in eternal families. The things she said also hold true for me as well. I'm so grateful to KNOW that our family is forever. I'm so grateful to KNOW that no matter what happens to us or our children down the road, we will be together again someday. My heart breaks for this couple who lost their baby boy just 2 days before his due date. But it's true, as mentioned on the blog, they learned so much from him from the short time he was here on earth. His mission in this life was fulfilled. I know that their loss is made more bearable with their knowledge of the Gospel and the knowledge that their family is eternally bound through sacred ordinances.
This is what Sarah, my sis-in-law, wrote:
"So my friend, Meagan, posted a link from her blog to another blog. She doesn't know these people and neither do I, but their story is amazing and very humbling to me. Watch the video on their page & read the background to it. It has truly made me grateful for many things. Specifically my family. I am so blessed to have Amber. I know I don't recognize that every day and I don't always feel 100% blessed but I truly am. Even more so, I'm grateful and blessed to be sealed to my family for eternity. I do know that families can be together forever. I don't know how I could go through life not knowing if I'd ever be able to see the ones I love again. It'd be to painful to not have that knowledge. I'm so grateful to my Heavenly Father for giving me that blessing and that knowledge. And I know that not all of you have my same beliefs and that's ok. But I just wanted all of you to know that it's true -- families are meant to be family forever. But please, go this link and seriously -- no matter what religion or faith you have or don't have, you're going to be touched. And it WILL make you cry so grab some Kleenex."

Here's the link:

(You'll have to copy and paste the link. I can't seem to make it active.)