Saturday, September 20, 2008

6 Weeks Pregnant=Sick & Emotional

Yeah, so I'm 6 1/2 weeks pregnant and I'm so sick! It's so much harder to do this being pregnant thing when you have to get up in the morning to take care of your kids.
I had an especially crappy morning that started with a 5 minute vomiting/dry heaving session, followed by a pounding headache, and an overpowering, crippling sense of nausea not relieved by the aforementioned puke session. I barely made breakfast--pancakes for the kids and a piece of dry toast for me, fed Cooper his pancake, and then went outside to eat my toast.
As I sat there, I started thinking about how I seemed to get more miserable and sick with each passing day and how I still needed to take care of the kids I have. I wondered why God made it so that women have to feel like crap when they get pregnant. Wasn't there some way He could have made the hormones, or whatever other bodily changes that occur during pregnancy, not affect us so much? Why does it affect some women and not others? And after thinking about all of this, feeling miserable, and being riddled with pregnancy hormones, I started to cry. I mean, like a real sobbing, hard cry...
I had left the door open, and Cooper came walking out. He saw how sad I was and immediately wrapped his little arms around my neck and pressed his chubby cheek against mine. This made me cry even more, so he held me tighter for probably a good two minutes. Then he pulled away and looked at me with his big brown eyes, said "Momma?," and then smiled his contagious little smile. I had to smile back. Who would have thought that a 19-month-old toddler could be so empathetic and caring?!? Could he really understand my feelings in his little egocentric, self-centered world? Maybe for that one little moment, he did. I so appreciated that precious little moment, and it made me feel better emotionally, though not physically.
I have since decided, today, to try to do as much as I would have done had I not been sick. I have a husband and kids to love and take care of, a house to clean, a job to work, friends and family to talk to, church callings to attend to, and a slew of other reponsibilities. If I have to puke and cry the whole way through it, then so be it.

18 comments:

The Andersen Family said...

Hang in there Kim...and congrats on the pregnancy! Just try to remember that when all the pain is said and done you will be left with a wonderful bundle of joy. And if it's anything like Kylie & Cooper I'm sure it will be an amazing child (not to mention adorable!!)

I wish I was there to help you out now, but my mom's surgery keeps getting delayed due to complications so we will see. I'll be thinking of you though and wishing you all the best!

Gail and Steve said...

Ohhhh Kim, If I could take the morning sickness away from you I would. But just look at those beautiful babies you and Scottie have and be thankful.
They sure know how to melt your heart and bring a smile to your face.

Becky said...

Congratulations on another one on the way!!! You are such a cool mom and sister!

That is the cutest story. What a little cutie Cooper is! We miss you!

michelle p said...

oh I am so sorry, and totally understand...I am only a few weeks ahead of you and still feel so yucky....and I agree, much harder with other little kids at home....ugh...hang in there :)

Jill said...

Look Kim, I am reading your BLOG! That is such a cute story. I wish I could be there to help you more. Call me if you need anything. I love you! Jill

Maggie's Mom said...

Oh Kim, I totally started crying as I read your post . . . I have been feeling the exact same way. I'm 10 weeks along now and have been pretty sick and tired and have had the hardest time finding the energy to take care of Maggie and Travis and everything else I have to do. It's nice to know that there are other's out there who feel the exact same way. If you ever need a listening ear, I'm here and know exactly what you are going through.

Misty said...

Congratulations!!! I never get to talk to your mom at church much anymore because I'm not in Primary, so I don't know what's going on with you or your family as much. Sorry to hear about the sickness, yuck!!! I hope things get better soon & you'll be able to bear the everyday responsibilities a little better.

Jennie Stephens said...

Oh Kim I have a tear in my eye from reading about Coop!! What a cutie! He is so stinken cute! I love his little personality! I was SO sick this weekend and I was at the craft fair. Saturday I ran to the bathroom half a dozen times.. with nothing in your stomach.. oh wow... its no fun to puke! AHHH its a good sign being sick though... sick mommy=healthy baby!!

Adam and Sarah said...

I'm sorry you've been feeling so sick and miserable! That's no fun at all. I hope it gets better for you sooner. Let me know if you need any help! Love you!

Dawn Rae said...

Congrats Kim, For some reason my last pregnancy was really emotional for me too. Greg put up with some crazy mood swings. As far as the morning sickness, I recommend Special K red berries cereal and sucking on hard candies to get the yuck taste out of my mouth. These seemed to work great for me. Hopefully this phase will pass quickly for you :)

Rhiannon said...

CONGRATS!!!!!!! I love you girls so much! It's so fun to see us all grow and learn and love and be happy and sad.

Blessed Be!

chel wakley said...

Congrats on the baby to come, sorry about being sick. That is really crappy. Hang in there.

Nathan said...

Sometimes I wonder what is worse having a nose drip incessantly all day long while at school or the morning sickness you all describe. I don't pretend to understand but the scriptures say we experience the bad to cherish the good. I sure miss being around hope things shape up soon.

Autumn said...

Congrats! I am sorry that you are so sick, I was so lucky to never be sick with the twins. I hope you get feeling better.

Crazycozartclan said...

Well congrats. I totally uderstand. The 3rd pregnancy was the worst one. (Only because you have the other 2 to take care of. ) You can do! It won't last forever (even though it feels that way.) Hang in there

Adrienne Gibson said...

uhhhggggg.....I agree with you. I can barely take care of myself some days let alone my little pride and joy whole relies completely on me. I sure hope you do start feeling better or at least have some better days. Congratulations to you all!! Tell Scott I say Hi and COngrats!

Jennie Stephens said...

You asked me about that baby wrap we saw that lady using at the OSS fair.... its called a MOBY wrap. here is the web page
http://www.mobywrap.com

raffleckt said...

Hey! That is the best post ever! Thanks for keeping it real. That is so sweet about little Cooper. Be easy on yourself & drink some strawberry banana nectar! =D